So today was boring as hell.
Yesterday was boring too.
Tomorrow is prolly gunna be boring also.
Im writing in this:
a) Because I'm bored
b) Because I have stuff to get off my chest
Well, I miss Shane a lot a lot. And I realized how hard it is without him today.
First off:
I have had nothing to do and no one to talk to cause Sarah is gone. SO I go to call Shane and...He's gone.
It was kind of a reality slap like, Damn...He's acctually gone ferreal...It's hard you know.
Not having your bestfriend there to talk to, to hang out with it sucks.
Then I hear this song right...and im like geesh this sounds famliar.
And wow...it's the last song I hear in his car on the way to court with Sarah before he leaves.
The worst part is, he's not commin back till Febuary or so. All I can do is wait.
I'm so greatful that I have Sarah. I really have nobody else.
Her and Shane are my everything, they're all I got.
So, I appreciate that you know. I appreciate the fact that I have 2 people in my life who care for me.
Who I know I can go to with everything. Someone to hang out with and have the best of times with.
So many people don't appreciate life.
They don't appreciate what's right before their eyes.
They take for granted the very essence of life, of love, of friendship.
But I am greatful. I appreciate everything I have.
And yes, at times I wish I had more.
I wish I had the money to get the things I want,
The erge to do better in life.
But I have what I have, and for that I am greatful.
I have the two greatest friends I could ask for.
A great family (but father)
And a great life.
I wish people could realize what they have...
We are so fast to complain about our wants
And so fast to forget about what we already have.
This is all leading to something I swear.
Saw 1&2 have honestly helped me realize this.
Helped me to realize that I do have a great life
Great friends, great everything.
And I was so selfish.
My look on things has changed so much.
I no longer have hatred towards people.
I no longer feel the need to be rude towards people.
And I'm a happier better person because of that.
So Thank You Leigh Whannell and James Wan.
Thank you for creating, writing this wonderful movie.
With such an amazing message.
You two are true genius's.
I'm greatful to have found such inspirational heroes in my life.
And I one day hope to be as amazing as you,
So to those who don't appreciate life.
To those who don't appreciate their families, their friends.
To those who don't appreciate what's right before your eyes,
I feel sorry for you. That you can't see the greatness you have been given.
And I hope that one day, one day the reality of your selfishness will set in.
And you will see, and not take for granted, the essence of everything you are given
Today was very inspirational.
Always remember:
Hope is endless....
And when you feel like giving up on everything,
You have people out there who care for you and love you.
Never give up on life, because life doesn't give up on you.
In different news:
I'm getting a job.
So about 80% of my time is going to be working.
And I am not getting a job to fufill my selfish wants of material objects.
I am getting a job, at the age of 15, to save up.
To save up and go to college, and fufill my dream.
My dream of becoming a director.
Moving to Australia and going to VCA then returning to the US to make a great movie.
And Hopefully, I will make a movie that will inspire others to live out their dreams.
Like Leigh Whannell and James Wan did for me.
I was proposed a question today.
"Where do you see yourself in 20 years?"
And my answer is:
Doing what I long to do. Fufilling my dreams and becoming someone.
Putting hope and encouragment onto others to do the same.
That is where I see myself.
So, if you're reading this.
Please take heed of what I say.
There is this little boy.
Named Mattie Stepanek.
He is amazing.
He died at the age of 13 from Muscular Distrophy.
But Mattie had so much insight.
He knew so much about life, about love.
He was truley a son of God.
I recommend that you read his books.
Heartsongs by Mattie Stepanek.
They are truley amazing, and insperational to all.
R.I.P Mattie.
Your soul, your Heartsongs will live on forever.
And your dream of inspiring others to understand and appreciate their life,
Has been made.
Thank you Mattie J.T Stepanek....
You are a true amazment.
Well, I'm off now.
Peace, love, and prosperity.
<3Kari.
p.s. Listen to the song "Hope" by Twista.
It's very insperational
Hope is endless....